Flowers
for my Grandson:
Flowers, something I never thought
I would purchase for you,
Never in a million Years.
Flowers are not for children, Flowers
are for lovers and years
Flowers are not for children, keeps
running though my mind.
Not for my Jacob Allen, it runs though
my mind every time.
I go to the store and I walk all alone
thinking of things I can bring you
home
warm fuzzy blankets, soft wooly bears
and foot-tee pajamas to wear anywhere.
The isles are always full of wonderful
things, changing with the seasons
winter though spring.
I wonder around looking at things
then come to realize the hardest thing
I stand in the isles with tears running
down, then I have to think of flowers
to lay on the ground
They have to be pretty no wilted ones
will do.
Should they be white for the pure
of heart or should they be blue
Roses have thorns is my first thoughts,
thorns for a baby, that just wont
do
Should I get carnations, do they have
anything in Blue.
Carnations I love, when they are big
fluffy and white
Can I find daisies with centers so
bright
Flowers are not for children, I feel
I'm going to snap,
I don't wont to buy my grandson something
like that
Oh Please God hear my cry, not for
my baby Jacob, flowers just die.
Flowers are not for children can't
you see.
Jacob should be playing with toys
and sand pails by the sea .
Many will never know my grand baby
is gone, How will I show off all the
things he has done
If I speak of all my grandchildren
many years from today,
Will they all understand fully why
his name I do say.
Jacob Allen if Grandma's wish could
come true
A few years from now maybe twenty
one or two
I would see you,my grandson from heavens
up high,
I would see you standing all grown
at my graveside and I would hear your
gentle sigh
"These Flowers are for you Grandma,
I love you and miss you too."
That would make my wish come true
Flowers are not for children, our
young babies should not die
Sudden infant death takes them to
soon, and no one knows why
Flowers are not for children and I
do know why,
I would have never in a million years
bought my grandson any if he didn't
die.
With all my love (Grandma) Madelyn
Victorino
Written By; Madelyn Victorino January
2004
This
is my precious Jacob Allen,
Here he is all tucked in to the couch
sitting up like a big boy, looking all
around. Uncle John thinks this is the
best one of these photos, and I have
to agree with him. It is the way he
is tucking in his bottom lip. He would
tuck it in like this and sometimes make
a little noise like a kiss sound when
he would release it. He did it alot
when he would eat cheese cake mouse
from Granny's family restaurant. Grandma
broke all the rules. This little man
got to taste lots of goodies from grandma's
plate.
He
is just chillin' in a t-shirt watching
the TV and Tyler playing in the front
room. I decided to snap a few pictures
of him to see just how they would turn
out. It was bad weather outside but
I really wanted a few photos. I had
to clean and lighten these up a bit
to be able to see them better. But,
all the photos that I have are treasures
to me now. Worth more then Gold it's
self. I had these pictures all enlarged
clean and was able to see the bubbles
he was making around his little mouth.
Just the little things now that make
us smile. Sometimes if you look close
you can see so much more then you ever
dreamed you would. You remember smells
sounds and recall special things that
were taken for granted at that moment.
I had so many plans for this 2004 summer
with Jacob and Tyler. Waiting for warmer
weather was the only thing standing
in his way for coming to the dog shows
with us.
"
Jacob With Attitude"
This photo was so dark I didn't think
I could save it. When I had the film
developed they could not lighten this
photo anymore. I was able to lighten
it alot on my computer and soften it.
I think this is a really cute picture
of Jacob. He looks like he has attitude
here in this photo,
but it is just manly the darkness of
the photo.
Personality & Attitude, he had alot
of both.
Please
view all of Jacob's Web - pages, They
are in order just click on Next.
Then please Remember to sign Jacob's
guest book,
to leave an Imprint in our
hearts
This Web page
Designed, With all My Love for my Little
Jacob,
Grandma (Madelyn Victorino)
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Jacob
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God's
Lent Child
I'll
lend you for a little while a child
of mine, God said,
For you to love him while he lives,
and mourn for when he's dead.
It may be six or seven years,
or forty-two or three;
But will you, till I call him back,
take good care of him for me?
He'll
bring his charms to gladden you,
and should his stay be brief,
You'll have the lovely memories
as a solace for your grief.
I cannot promise he will stay,
since all from earth return;
But there are lessons taught below
I want this child to learn.
I've
searched the whole world over,
for teachers kind and true;
And from the throngs that crowd life's
lane
I have chosen you...
Now will you give him all your love?
Nor think the labor pain?
Nor hate me should the angels call,
to take this child back again?
To
which the parents did reply...
Dear Lord, Thy will be done.
For all the joys thy child will bring,
the risk of grief we'll run.
We'll shelter him with tenderness,
We'll love him while we may...
for all the love this child will bring,
forever grateful we will stay.
But should the Angels call for him,
much sooner than we've planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that
comes,
and try to understand.
Author:
Edgar A. Guest
At
Grandpa & Grandma's
Jacob & Tyler just showed up at
Grandpa & Grandma's house for us
to watch. Grandpa took off to the store
to get some hard teething cookies for
Jacob.
Grandpa returned with the wrong type,
not the first baby cookies but one's
for toddlers.
So we gave him a milk bone dog biscuit
for the picture.
~
Oh goodness back up Uncle John ~
In November 2003 I was a welder for
the Iron Workers. My Husband and I both
were working in Centraila Washington
and the commute was very long. The last
Friday we didn't have to work the weekend
so we had time to stop and do some shopping.
I just had to stop on the way home to
purchase my new grandson some baby clothes
for this coming spring 2004.
I purchased many cute little out fits
for Jacob and couldn't wait until he
tried them all on.
Grandpa was right there helping me pick
out clothes for the boy.
Grandma
is getting him out of the car seat,
he is going to spend the rest of the
day with us. He was always so very
happy to see us
Mommy is off to work, and now we get
to spoil this little man.
Uncle John took these picture of Jacob
cause he thought it was funny to see
him with the dog biscuit.
After Jacob, passed we found these
photos still in the digital camera.
November
29th, 2003 Jacob Allen, attended a second
dog show, it was the UKC Snow Weight
Pull event.
Edith dropped him off at the show site
for us to watch, he was such a good
baby.
After the weight pull show we all went
out for dinner to Granny's Buffet.
I will miss this little man he was just
starting to be able to come to the shows
with Grandpa and Grandma.
I never have minded the care needed
for babies. I've always been the one
to take the kids everywhere the family
goes. I would rather go somewhere with
the kids then leave them home with a
sitter.
Our children and grandchildren are the
main reason for us showing the dogs,
we started years ago with horses.
Kids learn to care and love with the
help of animals.
Showing animals of any kind can bring
the family together
Jacob
was able to attend his first dog show
with the family before his passing.
On July 19th 2003 Jacob Allen attended
the Evergreen State APBT Dog show.
It was our first dog show with Jacob.
It was a show Grandma had spent alot
of time getting ready for, including
making sure the whole family was able
to be there. Edith, Shane, Tyler James,
Jacob Allen,Uncle John, Grandpa and
myself (Grandma)
h ad all the dogs and was ready to
camp out with the kids. But unfortunately
we only attended just the beginning
of the show and had to leave. But
Jacob, his mommy and Daddy stayed
for a bit longer.
This
was Jacob's first time with any kind
of cookie. So he didn't put it to his
face right away.
Later Grandpa picked up the right kind
of baby cookies and Jacob just would
make a mess, he would get cookie all
over his face. We kept them really cold
in the freezer to help his teething
Oh by the way, we didn't let him eat
the dog cookie but it was cute for this
photo.
Jacob
was more into wondering why we hadn't
taken him out of the car seat,
then he was all about the cookie. We
had a great night with Jacob and Tyler.
There were many times I couldn't wait
to get home to see my little boys.
The Lord is my shepherd,
I shall not want;
He makes me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside still waters;
He restores my soul.
He leads me in paths of righteousness
for His name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley
of the shadow of death,
I fear no evil;
for You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort
me.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow
me
all the days of my life;
and I shall dwell in the house of the
Lord forever.
Psalm 23
Song:
One More Day
By: Diamond Rio
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