Flowers
for Jacob
As Tyler's Grandma, I wonder just what goes though his
mind when we visit his brother Jacobs place of rest.
When we get there he worry's about the head stone being
dirty. Tyler is the one that works on making the flowers
just right.
Tyler
James loves his little brother so very much.
He is for ever picking out flowers for his brothers
grave. I feel Jacobs, death made Tyler grow up way to
fast. He has to understand things he should never of
had to, and it came in his life way to soon. I can see
Tyler going thought all the emotions of grief. Tyler
was way to close to Jacob and it hurts him so very deep.
Jacob's basinet as of April of 2004 is still next to
Edith's bed. She refuses to move it and I let her have
that for everyone needs to have what they feel is right.
Tyler comes in to her room in the early morning. One
day he placed his hand in the indent in the bassinet.
There is a perfect impression of were Jacobs head use
to lay. Tyler gently placed his hands over the impression
with out touching it at all. Tyler Looked over to Edith
and said "do you still think of my baby? Momma
said "all the time" Tyler said " this
is Jacobs head imprint, You got to be carefully not
to touch it cause it wont be there, huh? Then Momma
stated "yes, we have to be careful not to bother
it or it will not be there anymore.
I've
been to other National Cemetery's in the USA as a child,
one thing that stuck in my mind more then anything was
the rows of white stones. All laid in perfect height and
true straight lines any way you looked at them, East West
North and South.
When I asked my father why they were like that he explained
it to me in detail like he did everything I ever questioned.
Out of all he told me that day the simplest thing he said
meant the most and made be proud to be an American. I
was only a 8 year old but I was proud to be standing in
a field of heroes that meant so much to so many. Men and
some women that gave their life's to fight for our freedom.
And at the end of his teaching it was our way (USA) of
honoring the fallen solders.
I have to say that I'm a lot disappointed with the National
Cemetery were my grandson Rest. The head stones are not
straight they don't even try. The head stones are not
in straight lines anyway you look at them and the heights
are all different. Some head stones are even tilted back
and others are not. I don't seam to understand something
so simple to do something so important to honor our solders
and their family's, has been forgotten.
Why?
The
mums that were upon Jacob,s grave this day, are the ones
I used for this page. They were big bright and I thought
they would really look nice here. I tired to use as many
personal items I could to do Jacobs site. You will even
notice items of his clothes used and even my favorite
items within my home. This is the only thing I have to
offer him and for me it will never be enough.
This is the new area at the Tahoma National Cemetery so
there is no grass yet. As soon as it is full of loved
ones, they will hydro seed. So right now it is beauty
bark.
A nice bright sunny day.
I
have taken many pictures of Jacobs Grave site about
three different times now, that I have been there. I
don't know why over half I discard because it is a digital
camera and it's easy to. It's just a place were my Grandson
body is kept. I know he is not there, he is always with
us in spirit.
As I sized these pictures to a 4x6 print I never noticed
........
I never even noticed after placing each picture in the
frames I spent time making. It was here on the very
picture I noticed ......
As I was placing the picture into the frame I seen the
spot on my camera above Jacobs grave.
I thought I would just cover it with Jacob's clear graphic
angle we made. I thought I don't wont to go repair the
photo for something so miner as that.
I went in to my file to pull up the Graphic angle to
place on the photo. I pulled the graphic angle down
and then it dawned on me. It was not raining it was
a very overcast day and I away's check my lens before
shooting Pictures.
Then I looked at the other photos I've taken of the
grave site. There is the one I cropped in really close
of Tyler placing the mums on Jacob's grave. I don't
see anything there. But in all the others whether it
was sunny or overcast day there is something in the
photo...
Well it's just a little spot. But it is only in the
photos at Jacob's grave site.
I'll let you decide for your self ...
But I do believe it is Jacob present with us. I believe
angels greave too, I know now he hears what we have
been saying to him all along.
I decided I didn't need to place the graphic angel of
Jacob on the grave stone. Because Jacob was already
there and that is what his angel form really looks like
to us if we were to look upon it.
So I'll place the angel I made right here instead.
In
Loving Memory of Our Grandson
Jacob Allen Victorino Zeigler
Happy Easter Baby Boy 2004
The
Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth
me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of
death,
I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and
thy staff they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine
enemies:
thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days
of my life:
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.
Please
view all of Jacobs Web pages, They are in order just click on Next.
Then please Remember to sign Jacob's guess book, to
leave an Imprint in our hearts.
MY
FIRST CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN
I
see the countless Christmas trees
around the world below
with tiny lights like Heaven's stars
reflecting on the snow
The
sight is so spectacular
please wipe away the tears
for I am spending Christmas
with Jesus Christ this year!
I
hear the many Christmas songs
that people hold so dear
but the sound of music can't compare
with the Christmas choir up here!
So
please be happy for me, dear ones
you know I hold you dear
and be glad I'm spending Christmas
with Jesus Christ this year!
Please
love and keep each other
as my Father said to do
for I can't count the blessings or love
He has for each of you
So
have a Merry Christmas
and wipe away that tear
remember ...I am spending Christmas
with Jesus Christ this year!
This
Web page Created, With all My Love.
For my Grandson Jacob.
These flowers are for you Jacob!
Grandma (Madelyn Victorino)
In
loving memory of our Grandson
Jacob Allen Victorino Zeigler
Born on Earth 6-6-2003 to awaken in Heaven on 12-13-2003
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~Rest in Peace~
Page 9 of 12 updated on 10-7-2006
Just
a small whisper a gentle breeze is it Jacob ?
He is just above watching over us all the time
some times we can capture a twinkle of his presents
Song:
Amazing Grace Bagpipes
By: Braveheart
Halloween
2004
This halloween was very
difficult for me. Last year (2003) I made sure Jacob and
Tyler had halloween costumes. I had purchased two for
Jacob not knowing just which one he would ware on Halloween
day.
This
year the same costumes hung in the store and it was all
I could do to leave the area before I lost it.
Last year 2003 I was in pain and really didn't want to
go out with the family on Halloween night. But Johnathen
and I agreed we would do a block or two then go home for
a good movie and dinner with everyone.
It
was to be Jacobs first halloween and it was just one of
those special things we have always done.
No way would I miss it,
I wanted to carry him but found out really soon that it
would not be possible. So Shane his daddy carry him most
of the time. Grandpa gave Shane Brakes every now and then.
So
many memories, so little time.
Easter Eggs were Decorated for Jacob,
Each with our message of love written upon them. Easter
Lilly from Pooler's, Flowers from Grandpa, eggs done by
Uncle John and Brother Tyler, and wagon & bunny from
Grandma.
Flowers from Mommy's & Daddy's Garden
"Happy Easter to Mommy's Little man." Edith
Memorial
Day 2004
Tahoma
National Cemetery
Beautiful green grass covers Jacob's site
now and more sites are coming all to soon.
Jacob's Birthday
6/6/2004
I have
no cake for you this day
There will be no celebration like we should
No sweet white frosting to smear upon your face
There will be no sticky sweet mess to clean up this
year
No frosting in your ear, up your nose or in your hair
No pictures like that will I take
No not this year there will be no cake. I didn't have
to teach you, how to blow
Blowing out the candle with out all the spit
The candle for a one-year-old boy will not be blown
out by you
No one will have to eat a piece of cake with all that
baby spit
No I didn't have to teach you how to blow out the candle
like that
God only knows just how much I will miss not seeing
you do that.
No presents wrapped in pretty
wrapping, will be on the table for you
I won’t have to worry about the paper you would
try and eat or getting the ribbon away from you
No bows will we stick to the top of your head
No toys will Grandpa and Uncle John have to worry about
putting together
There will be no reason to worry about batteries; there
is no need.
There will be no balloons all
over the house
None for your big brother Tyler, to pop and try to scare
you with.
No balloons to go around your wrist, none for you to
try and sit on.
No Balloons to smear your frosting on, no not this year
All I can do is tell you I love
you and miss you so much and pray that you hear me.
I will place many flowers, different shades of Blue
Balloons and one Red one upon your grave
I will mark your place of rest the best I can
I will burn a candle in memory of you and I promise
every tear I shed will have a reason to fall.
But I know I will still want to bake a cake and see
the candle light up your face.
That moment along with thousands of others I will truly
miss.
No cake for you this day, Some day God will tell me
why he took you away.
Love you forever,
Your proud Grandma, Madelyn Victorino 6-6-2004
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