Are you aware that:
If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days or even hours. But the family we left behind will feel the lost for the rest of their lives. We pour ourselves more into work, than to our family.
An unwise investment indeed.
You know what is the full word of family?

Looking for My Falling Star
January 2004 I spent allot of time on the internet looking up information on Sudden Infant Death Syndrome. I spent countless hours surfing for answers. We have so many unanswered questions in our minds about our grandsons passing. Needless to say we are still searching for answers, I really don't think will find the answers we are seeking.

During my visits on SIDS sites and Children's memorials I came across many times this Quote, about falling stars. After I read this quote, for some reason it became important to me to locate the coordinate of a falling star for the night Jacob Passed.

No one knows more about the Stars and our heavens then Astronomers, and better yet astronomers in an Observatory. I sent out many e-mails asking for any information on locations of a falling star for the night of December 13, 2003 at or around 6:00pm PST

Out of all the e-mails I sent out I only received information from two people. One was very short and left me wondering, but I had received something. Another took time explaining falling meteor fragments, and giving me a much needed lessen on astronomy.
I would like to thank them both for taking the time to personally answer my e-mail.

I sat in the ambulance for hours and never thought about looking up to see a falling Star. I was holding on to every moment left with my Grandson just hoping I would never forget all the little things about him.
Later I was just hoping someone else was checking out the stars. I found out hundreds of people were gazing at the stars and the heaven that night. Just in anticipation of the Geminid shower.

I do know now that during my grandsons entrance into heaven there were allot of people looking straight into heavens gates as they open for Baby Jacob. Gods heavenly in brace of a child into heaven has to be so powerful that even looking towards the heaven at the precise moment God embraces the little sole, one must feel a heavenly fulfillment that they can't explain.

Jacob you'll always be Grandma & Grandpa's Brightest Star!

December 13th 2003 marked the peak of an annual meteor shower known as the Geminids

Thanks
Joe Wheelock
McDonald Observatory

On December 13, 2003 we lost our precious Baby Jacob to Sudden Infant Death Syndrome.
We were waiting for Edith to Bring Jacob over to Grandma & Grandpa's house for us to watch him. Uncle John, Grandpa, Tyler and I had just got the house ready for the Christmas tree.We had planed on taking the boys out for dinner then picking their mommy up christmas gifts from both of them. But the tree was first , we were waiting for Jacob to come over so we could all go out and find that special tree for the year2003. A Christmas tree just right to plant in the front yard after Christmas. Like we have done every year sense we bought our home, one of our family traditions. When Noon came around I asked Grandpa and Uncle John, several times, were is our baby boy? Edith must be late, or She must have gotten the day off. Many times I started to call but for some reason and I have no ida why, I never called. I can't explain why the call weighed so heavy on my mind. Normally I would just pick up the phone to call Edith, to ask "where are you? are you brining my baby over?" What stopped me from making the call? God only knows.
Edith had to go to work at the emergency Vet Clinic she was schedule to get off work at 6:00pm PST. Jacobs Daddy Was on a night leave from the 81st infantry scheduled to go to Iraq in February 2004. Edith chose to leave Jacob with his daddy Shane Allen Zeigler and uncle Shawn Zeigler. Edith, wonted Shane to be able to spend as much time with his son Jacob before he was deployed to Iraq. When the Army calls you to duty, you have to make every moment of your own life count. Edith was pulling into the parking lot of the Apartment buildings were uncle Shawn lives. Edith, noticed all the ambulance, fire department and aid vehicles. She came into the apartments like she normally did and went up to Apt 57. The door was open and no one was in the room, she walked down the hall and headed down the stairs. That is were she found Shane
(Daddy) on his knees sobbing uncontrollable. Edith, said she just knew and ran to the ambulance were she seen them working on Jacob.They wouldn't let her in and told her they were working on him. As she looked though the window She noticed the shot of epinephrine that they were giving Jacob. By working in the vet clinic for the pass 4 years she knew what that meant. She knew it was to late, her baby was already gone, there was nothing bringing him back now. She wonted her son now and demanded to be with him. She let them know she knew what was happening. They let her in and she embraced her son. Edith made the call to our home, Johnathen ( Grandpa) received the call, it was the worst sounds I ever heard "NO! NO are you sure! Edith are you sure? NO! Jacob? NO!" Oh My God NO! not Jacob. I watched in horror a man in a split second crushed and I knew. Just three little words Dad, Jacob's Dead. As he took down information on the location of the Apartments and told her we were on our way. I was already hysterical I didn't wont to hear the news. I screamed not my baby no Johnathen Don't Tell me something is wrong with my Jacob! But that was what he had to tell me, all the questions ran thought our minds. Where was he? Why didn't Edith bring Jacob here?He was suppose to be here, why didn't she bring him here? I went thought hating God screaming at him for taking our grand baby. Why didn't God just take me? We showed up at the Apartments were Jacob was to be, to see all the residents standing around. We ran to the ambulance and there was my daughter, Shane, and my Grand Baby Jacob. A part of me died that night, a big part of our whole family's life. Nothing would ever be the same no mater how many years go by. Our hopes and dreams shattered in a split second, the second Jacob stopped breathing. We were all able to hold our baby Jacob for hours until the corinoner came to take him away late that night. We were all there to hold Jacob and say what we felt was important to each of us. I was able to be with him during the reenactment they had to do. The two brothers Shane (father) Shaun Uncle had to do a reenactment for the police and Edith wonted to be there to see what had taken place. She asked me to be with Jacob and I sat in the ambulance and recited the Lords prayer and The lord is my shepard then I recited thought the ten commandments with Jacob. I said a few prayers and I felt I had to tell God I was sorry and asked for forgiveness.
There are so very many emotions that run rapid though your mind, changing every second.

There is nothing harder then holding your baby in your arms and not seeing him breath. There's nothing you can do for the lifeless little person you hold.